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| Tuesday, May 23, 2006 |
| rain, drums and frs... ain my life prefect |
I actually do like the rain. Not exactly standing right in the middle of a shower but sitting by the window and watching the rain drops trickle down the window panes. Another pleasure is to stand by the window, feel the breeze and watch rain drops as they rush to the pavements.
Oh yes.. there's a romantic side to this cynic.
Yesterday, for the 1st time, i tried the Drum Mania machine in the video arcade. No, i didnt discover the drummer in me. I sux.
But i discovered its an amazing way to distress, to vent some anger (disclaimer: it only works if one can laugh at their stupidity and lack of rhythm)
I was sooo engrossed in trying to hit the right panel at the right beat, I actually injured myself. I have no idea how i managed to hit my right jawline with the stick.
Well.. i am not giving up.. going to try another time.
For now, I am going back to staring at the rain and trying to digest FRS 39. |
posted by thesillypurpledog @ 2:30 AM  |
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| Tuesday, May 02, 2006 |
| brooding |
When I was really young, I wanted a fairytale life, yes, those that we read in books. Some young, chivalous knight in shinning armour will come rescue me and we will live happily ever after, best if he is a prince, just like in Cinderella. I was perhaps... 5 yrs old?
When i was slightly older, I realised that its not possible to simply stand by the balcony of one's flat and wait for some prince to come. Youths of today do not have the luxury that Sleeping Beauty, Cinderella, Ariel etc etc... enjoys. We need to be all-rounder. We need to go to school, make new friends, take art classes, play competitive sports... basically girls cant just stand infront of the mirror and comb their hair all day (although I suspect some girls still do). To add to one's slowing disappearing fantasy, we learnt that in this contemporary society, fairytales do not exactly exist as there's only 1 Prince William, a handful of young sultans and perhaps a few hidden Rajas; in other words, there's not enough to go around!
So what can one do? Oh well... if I cant have a Prince, why not a magnificient love story like Romeo and Juliet. But then again, how many families are like the Montagues and Capulets? Do not think there are many families that are enternal arch-enemies, unless you are part of some Mafia family who has feuded for generations.
At this point in time, one can only relent and accepts what one's mummy has been preaching since young.... study hard, get a good job, marry a nice boy, have tons of kids..... and this cycle goes on and on and on. Could this order 0f events proved to be the best?
During my rebellion age, I told my mum that I do not want to stick to the 'neutral' order of life, I want to jumble it up. Wouldnt it be nice to get married before entering University? Just listening to the lecturer could be the best antenatal education. Your child's brain starts absorbing analysis and facts, learns to be comfortable when participating in discussions.
However, that didnt happened to me.
As I aged, the thought and hope of jumping the natural sequence diminishes. Now that I stand a the brink of graduation, is there anymore hope of jumping squences or perhaps choosing an alternative path? Alternative path= do not get a 9-5 job, do not fret over worldly delights, go be the free, odd bird that will make people envy yet despise you at the same time.
Yes yes yes.. I know that I can still choose the alternative path. One will tell me that I can be a hippie (and not ever carry a LV or wear a Tiffany?), be a wanderer (look scuffy and not dine at the Ritz?), or even be a artist (yeah... what a romantic thought but I cant draw and dont want to strave). Guess when one grows older, the question may not longer be "can I" but "should i"? After putting in so much effort to get to this point, will I be losing out more if I do not follow suit? But the most important question of all is, "Do I Dare?"
yah.. I've said it. Cowardice is the word. As we grow older, we are more afraid to lose, more wary about what others are saying about us, more afraid to thread unfamiliar territories because if it proves to be treacherous or unworthy, we may not have the time and opportunity to backtrack and start all over again. There's a "chicken" in all of us, just that when we grow older, the "chicken" gets bigger.
Give me some time to mull over this issue (although I have been mulling for the last 23 years). Do I want to carry on the path that I am cruising on? If not, what else do I want to do? What is my alternative route?
Wait.. I think someone telling to pack up and go overseas to work, go venture new areas.... of please.. wouldnt it depends whats my job over there? It might just be Geography. |
| posted by thesillypurpledog @ 1:59 PM |
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